I'm a little over a month sober today and I really could use a drink. I'm not going to though. I'm staying strong and using a support system that I have set up. I have a pinky swear with a friend that I will call or text him if I need to before I take that first drink.
I am going to find a couple of meetings for this weekend.
I really don't like the holidays. I don't like the hustle and bustle or the chaos. I, also, don't like being around a lot of people. I prefer just being by myself or one maybe two other people. I just like sitting around chit chatting with a cup of coffee or hot chocolate. When it gets close to Christmas I don't even mind a little Christmas music and turning off all the lights except the tree lights.
I don't like big dinners, there is no reason to eat all that much so that you are miserable.
I have one Grandma that passed away in November and the other is on death's door. Maybe. She has been saying she is going to die for the past several years and she is still kicking. This time, however, it is starting to look bad. I'm heading to go see her on Christmas Day, anyway, just in case. I can't not go say goodbye just in case. I don't want her to pass without her knowing that I love her very much. She is 94 though and she has had a pretty healthy life until the last 5 yrs or so.
I hate having money problems. I hate having to stretch every dollar that I have. Especially here at the holidays when there is so much pressure anyway.
I miss my friend! He keeps me sane and calm!
Would love to sit and have a cup of coffee with you. And you can always talk to me if you need to have that drink. I'm home, call me or text and we'll get together.
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